Uggghhh!!

It is 12:47 in the morning and I am officially going on almost 3 days of scanty sleep.  I can't say no sleep cause I've gotten a few hours in here and there, but it's definitely closer to no sleep than some sleep.  It's not that I can't get comfortable...that's the easy part.  I can't sleep because my stupid arms and hands won't let me.  If I could chop off my arms right now and be able to get a full nights sleep...I might choose that. :)  Okay, I'm going a little over board here and of course I would miss my arms and hands, but they are NOT my friends right now.   Here's a rundown of every night for the past 2 or 3 weeks.  I go to bed at around 9 and try to find a position I think will work for the arms.  Maybe Ill try sleeping in a 90 degree upright position...maybe a 45 degree position will work.  Nope, so let's try lying on the left side with right arm (that's the one I really want to murder) propped up on a pillow out straight and not bent.  Not even close, I think it just went numb faster than normal.  How is that possible when I'm not even on it at all????   Okay, this bed thing is not working at all...let's get up for the hundredth time tonight and try the recliner...again...works for about an hour and then here we go again.  Really???  NOTHING works???  I mean I'm already going to bed with BOTH wrists in braces so they won't bend.  This doesn't help.  Tried prenatal massage thinking that might help.  Wrong!  I think I made it worse.  Next stop...chiropractor.  If I get no help from that, maybe accupuncture will help.  And that's the end of my rope.  I have NO idea what to do after that. 

Okay, positive side of all this...it's only for 120 something more days.  I can do anything for that long.  Right???  After little Vince is born, it will all go away.  I mean I know the sleepless nights won't, but at least I'll be up for a good reason instead of trying to wake my stupid arms up.   I know I shouldn't be this whiny about things considering this is what I really want.  But I will say, I had NO idea it was going to be this bad.  I don't think I was supposed to. 

I came into this whole pregnancy thing thinking it was going to be all rainbows and fairytales.  I was so excited to be pregnant and I so wanted to get pregnant and the people I talked to had mostly positive things to say about it.   This is God giving me a reality check.  I think He's helping me break my idealistic thoughts of pregnancy and raising children.  He's giving me the hard stuff now so that when Vince comes, it won't be such a shock!!  At least that's what I'm going to keep telling myself every night when I can't sleep.   God doesn't give us more then we can handle.   And I'll get through it just like everyone else and have a precious baby boy.   Just don't ask me, "Don't you just love being pregnant?"   You might get more than you bargained for.  :)